How have I changed this year?

Surely there are things about yourself that you don’t like. So you change them, right? Well, not exactly. It’s more likely that you keep on doing them, even though you say you’d like to change them. So is the old adage, “A leopard can’t change his spots,” true? That people can’t change?

No, people can change.

How have I changed, well that's a vague question, changing from what? From my blog or how have I changed as a person? Other than the obvious marks, meaning voice dropping an octave, getting taller, getting more mature well, I guess not much.  I mean I have undergone some significant changes this year but that doesn't change the fact that what makes me and you truly me and you? Or as a philosopher said: what makes us, us?  Is it the way we act? Our actions? How we look? No its simply more simple, is how we can change, to what you ask? How we change as a person or even in an intense circumstance. Our morals, our witt,   how  we  think.  

 But you can’t just snap your fingers and say goodbye to well-established patterns that you have made, even when those patterns result in bad consequences. Sure, you wish it could be easier. You may be impatient with yourself, giving yourself a good scold: “Just stop it already!” Oh, how I hate the word “just” when it pertains to change. We don’t change “just” because someone (even ourselves) wants us to.

So, how do you change? 

It’s a process that begins with being aware. This may seem obvious, but it’s not. If you're used to blaming everyone else for your problems, then you're not aware. If you're living your life in a daze, blaming bad luck, then you're in denial. How are you ever going to change anything if you don't own up to how your thinking and behavior help create the predicament you're in?

Its not as easy as exercising for 4 weeks and keeping to it, it's not just putting your money into a savings account and walking away. No, we change the most when we are low, when we have done something wrongful, we recognise it, and we are alone. We, even without knowing it, sometimes will make an oath to change the way we are so that there are no consequences next time.

I have changed, I have changed by being more aware, I am on that path, not necessarily changed, I am constantly changing, I went from being stuck up to being relaxed and nicer to everyone.  Yes, it was because something distasteful happened to me, what I did, I don't want to own up too, I have though and I am not blaming anyone for it anymore, only myself. 

Change, not as easy as one might think, it is constantly happening and constantly will be happening. Change is as unavoidable as making mistakes, for we must improve, and to improve we must change.

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i guess idk

I can already tell you that this isnt a strong post...Ok so look I really don't know what i'm supposed to be talking about so ill really just procrastinginating yesh, thats a word now.  I know... Mother day, which is today, which is also not so good.

Image courtesy of Epic Club 

Mother's Day is a modern celebration honoring one's own mother, as well as motherhood, maternal bonds, and the influence of mothers in society. It is celebrated on various days in many parts of the world, most commonly in the months of March or May. It complements similar celebrations honoring family members, such as Father's Day and Siblings Day.The celebration of Mother's Day began in the United States in the early 20th century; it is not related to the many celebrations of mothers and motherhood that have occurred throughout the world over thousands of years, such as Pitru Paksha in Ancient India, the Greek cult to Cybele, the Roman festival of Hilaria, or the Christian Mothering Sunday celebration (originally a celebration of the mother church, not motherhood). I thought I would just tell you cuz why not, however I am tired of talking already from that VERY LONG extended definition.  No, im not just tired i'm exhausted, I have just given up to the point where I dont even know anymore.  My mothersday has been very long because well, I first didn't sleep last night, I have insomnia, not fun.  Then came home at nine cuz why not, got dressed, watched a movie, ate some breakfast and wrote a blog post.  Then I went to brunch at this place called the jarmy club, so that was fun, First I had a very filled plate with fruit, cantaloupe, strawberries, meat, eggs, and potatoes, that was a lot of food, I ate that five times then had dessert for like thirty minutes.  I could not stop eating, it was ridiculous.  We were eating foods with my family friends, they are like family to us, and they gave me a ride home because why not vs my parents who im pretty sure hate me.  Then I have homework (what IM doing now) and my parents locked me in my room and so I could not go anywhere which is annoying, so here I am, sitting, watching captain america two: the winter soldier.  Winter is coming, GOT reference.  Im wondering if there is even anyone out there? reading what i'm writing, so lonly, other then you MR P. and just to let you know Mr.Parker if your reading this please don't grade me on this blog post, will ya do it on another one.  Well here we are again, back at the end of the pose, what oh what am I going to do, probably write another one.  If someone is reading this will you please just like say a word, just say HI, in the comments because I honestly what to know if I should keep writing or not. OK Bye I guess.

Well I guess my movie

My movie, my movie, my movie that's ummmmm not very specific I guess i'm trying to say is what is my favorite movie, well thats really hard to say so im going to come up with it on the spot, right now.  Ok, so probably avatar, with the giant blue people, why I always say with the giant blue people is because there is this other stupid ass movie called avatar the last airbender, and trust me I like the television show but this movie, it made a movie that got rated a point five by the IMBD look like an eleven, you get what im saying? But the other movie it starts On the lush alien world of Pandora live the Na'vi, beings who appear primitive but are highly evolved. Because the planet's environment is poisonous, human/Na'vi hybrids, called Avatars, must link to human minds to allow for free movement on Pandora. Jake Sully (Sam Worthington), a paralyzed former Marine, becomes mobile again through one such Avatar and falls in love with a Na'vi woman . As a bond with her grows, he is drawn into a battle for the survival of her world over the human race who want to take the world from them for a precious mineral. Or you can llok at it from the needy perspective When his brother is killed in a robbery, paraplegic Marine Jake Sully decides to take his place in a mission on the distant world of Pandora. There he learns of greedy corporate figurehead Parker Selfridge's intentions of driving off the native humanoid "Na'vi" in order to mine for the precious material scattered throughout their rich woodland. In exchange for the spinal surgery that will fix his legs, Jake gathers intel for the cooperating military unit spearheaded by gung-ho Colonel Quaritch, while simultaneously attempting to infiltrate the Na'vi people with the use of an "avatar" identity. While Jake begins to bond with the native tribe and quickly falls in love with the beautiful alien Neytiri, the restless Colonel moves forward with his ruthless extermination tactics, forcing the soldier to take a stand - and fight back in an epic battle for the fate of Pandora.  Here is a picture of the movie '

image courtesy of the combat jack show

This movie is absolutely spectacular.  However this is not my only favorite movie, I also like most of the marvel movies like the avenger ones. You know what I mean, like iron man, thor, captain america, hulk, and guardians of the galaxy.  My friends and I can totally like nerd out for hours about this stuff, its ridiculous, like is feels like we can speak a different language. You could be standing right away from us and we could be speaking english and you would too but we would be saying thing that you, as a person, wouldn't understand or get just because there is like so much vocabulary between all of those movies, infinity stones, thanatos, cap, go two sleep. ect. Its just, another language, trust me.   You wanna know what would be cool, if you commented and told me what your favorite movie is and we can just talk about it.  We can speak our own language that no one else can understand. We can nerd out and just talk about movies.

making incense

ok, I know what you're thinking, it's really stupid and i'm never gonna read this, however maybe not, incense are a wonderful thing, the smell that they can emit can differ exponentially, I am here to teach you to be able to make your own, all you have to do is follow the following steps.  You can just google common incense recipes.  A list of recipes will show up, for example mine is 1 part cedar, 1/4 part mint, and 1/4 part pinion pine tree sap.  Now once you have that get all of you ingredients, and you may have to do something to them, for example I had to cut a metal can, and put the unhardened tree sap into the metal tin can,which was hot cuz I was burning it, melt the sap and pour it onto a piece of parchment paper wait for it to cool then ground it up in a mortar, then filter out all the pieces that are larger than a grain of sand then mix that with the tree resin that was already ground up without cooking it.  Ok, a little background info you must have three bases before you  start. You need a top topic, a middle topic and a base topic, each topic does its unique job.  The top gives flavor mixed with the middle and the base is used to bind and hold everything together.  Once all of all your ingredients are ground up, mix them together with a binding agent called makko powder, which is a natural combustant that is also water adhesive, which makes the whole process amazingly simple.  All you need to do is just mix equal parts of the makko powder with the mixed topics and add distilled water until it becomes something similar to dough.  Then mend this dough onto any stick or cone:

Image courtesy of Lucy6's blog

 Then you may need to open these incense to the sun for a few days and let them dry out so that the soaking process with the makko is done. Then  you need to heat them to the lowest temperature in your oven that you possibly can.  This will allow the makko powder to fully set in.  

I know it seems like a lot to put a handle on but once you're done you may  be able to create your own natural essence.  You may want to keep in mind this is all one hundred percent natural, there are no harmful chemicals at all.  Even the makko powder comes from the bark in a tree in asia.  I state my point again, you can customize your smell and this can also have medical benefits, and its all natural. I really hope that you guys liked this post, it was one of my favorites because I not only get to tell you how to make your own but I hope you comment later on, and if you decide to di it list some of your favorite recipes.  Thanks bye.

Crazy adventure, With sand!

One thing first, I hate the sand, I absolutely hate it, it gets everywhere, absolutely everywhere, I hate it, I already said that....  I really like cars, I mean I don't anymore, but I did once love them!  The reason I don't like them anymore lies in a place called sand hollow, as you can tell, it has sand, hence sand hollow.  Which brings me to my next point, if I weigh my hate of sand and my love of cars, the hate of sand will always, always win.  So my family and I [mom sis and I, dad was at home (4hrs away) ]  we went tos sand hollow

Image courtesy of Utah Outdoors

As you can see, it is very very sandy, so not much fun for me, unless I am riding a dirtbike, which is always fun (mostly).  So we were driving along in my moms toyota sequoia  (yes I know, very manly), and we hear the engine go VVVVVVRRRRR VRRRR VR VR VVV vvvrr vv vr rrrrrr......  dead!

So of course my mom starts it up and of course it goes VVVVVVRRRRR VRRRR VR VR VVV vvvrr vv vr rrrrrr again she starts it a third time after twenty minutes, gets it to start with an amazing ROOAAARR, she guns it, our car, (being its so heavy) sinks to the ground (into the ground)  my mom absolutl flips out, its a camping ground we started asking around, asking everyone, everyone around, like 15 people because sand hollow is HUGE.  We then find this guy, now this guy had a bunch of kiddy plastic shovels, my mom tells me to get digging, and of course I do because I want to get the hell out of there.  so after about forty minutes of digging the wheels are halfway out, it has now been an hour since we got stuck, so the guy (being the nice gentleman that he is, in a sort of redneck way) hooks our car with his car and starts to tow us out of there, then his engine goes VVVVVVRRRRR VRRRR VR VR VVV vvvrr vv vr rrrrrr......  dead! we realized he shouldn't get it started again, but it was too late, he started it first try, jammed on the gas and what do ya know! he got stuck!  so then that guy got stuck and my mom called the towing company, this guy was an asshole, we were stuck out there, it took him FOURTY MINUETS when it should have taken him five, which is like, insane, and frustrating, it took him soo long and by then it was an hour and forty minutes and he just decides to turn around because we are too far away from the "safe spot" in the mean time, when we first got stuck my mom called my dad, he dove out there, and he undug the tires, let some air out, started up the car, slowly put on the gas, and we were out in ten minutes, when it took him three hours to get out there, which is frustrating. Hope you liked this blog post, ttyl.

CAR? YES? No? maybe? no. okay...., im sorry... IT IS HOW IT WENT!!!

SO the idea of me getting a car went from a YES? to a sorta yes to a No? to a maybe then to a no, then to an okay, which is disappointing, in the end my face was the okay meme seen below


I realize there is no photo.. my stupid schools firewall it protecting it,  
SEE!!!!! ITS SO CORRUPT!!!

anyway I was just really disappointed

 that I couldn't get a car that is

ANYWAY  it started out something like this...
I was finally going to get my permit because I was finally old enough my parents said yeah I was psyched, then I turned 15 on my birthday and then the answer went quickly from a yes to a really vague answer, so I immediately started getting nervous.

Step two, as I am a teenager and when my parents start to reconsider I immediately run to the nearest safe house, and for me that was my room, after many moons I finally birthed from my den, and my question was simple (no there was no real den but I shut up for a few days---many moons--- about the whole deal) the question was a simple no, but of course with a question at the end of the no so it was a No?

My parents after several days of considering and reconsidering finally decided that it was worth a shot  AS LONG AS I KEPT MY GRADES UP!!!  remember that!! remember those words, they can be your friend of your enemies, in my case those word were a MOFO!!!!

Then as you can guess my gpa slowly and slowly dropped in like two of my classes,  My parents said that it looked like a no, my hopes and dreams were smashed, its ok though because I still had my finals, which would help, not do much or kill me....

image courtesy of quirky science  

This is what happened to my GPA after finals, so I stopped asking about a car just to avoid grade questions, It raised suspicion!!!  I mean of course it did, its my parents were talking about.  They are crazy!!! BAT CRAZY!!!!  its ok though, the whole car idea kinda crashed and burned, like my gpa, I kinda apologized and then just said that I will wait for summer, in my head that is! Im not really sure how this will blow over with my parents, you see, I think I NEED a 3.4+ for a car in the summer as of right now I have like a 3.0 which is upsetting, really upsetting.  Ill start a petition, if you guys can comment on this post, I will flip shit, not only that but if I get enough comments and page views and supporters I think that we can persuade my parents to get me a car, because we are awesome, and stuff.  Also I mean why wouldn't you help a fellow guy out? get a car eh?  and its not only my gpa I kind owe my parents like 1000$ and stuff, we will save that for another time.

COMMENT

candy

Yeah its true, I really really like candy, you could say I relish it, or you could say I just have a sweet tooth, its all the same.  The reason I say this is because I absolutely horde the stuff. I have some with me right now, this very second.  My favorite is probably hard candy, you know? lolli pops, jolly ranchers, that sort of stuff, but I also really like chocolate, I like the milky ways, the mars bars, all of it.  I even like some of the stuff that most people don't even like, for example I had a lolli pop with a scorpion in it, that was cool

Image courtesy of hotlix 

I also really like sushi candy, for a couple reasons, it tastes good, its fun to make, and its just generally awesome!  Plus that bonus of not being bored anymore, which is always bliss.   Then for a person like me, when you combine music and candy and skiing, and music, don't forget the music,  its more than bliss, if god was an adjective then thats how it would be, it would be god, just imagine me walking through the streets, with a sucker in my mouth, headphones on, and I can't hear myself because my music is so loud, and saying "I FEEL GOD! Just imagine that for a moment.   Except with the sushi candy its sooo messy, its like syrupy and stuff.  However it certainly adds the 'juice' to your day, that was a bad pun.   .  OK, just to give you an idea of how much of a sweet tooth I have, I have a stash of candy and donuts and lemon powered cookies right now by my windowsill, it works because i'm not one of those kids who eats some candy and is then up for the next 6 hours.  No I can eat a donut and then 2 minutes later fall asleep.  Which is why I have a stache by my bed, so when I wake up in the night craving sugar, I can just reach over, grab a donut, eat it, drink some water, fall back asleep, (not necessarily in that order too!) I think I got my sweet tooth from my grandma because she loves chocolate, she also loves sweet things, like caramels, and soft candies, she doesn't like the hard candie, where as I, I like it all!  If I know you and you are reading this, get me a shit ton ( yea a shit ton thats a thing now) , of three musketeers, I LOVE THEM SO GOD DAMN MUCH!!!  I don't really know why though,  my dad, for christmas, got me over 140 three musketeers and my little black dog cozette, ate all 138 of them when I wasn't looking, sometimes we find little shiny wrappers in her poo.  Its ok though because she is practically indestructible, well her stomach at least.  Well I really hope you really enjoyed my post about really enjoying chocolate, I would enjoy it so if you did, I will also enjoy reading then responding to your response while enjoying some candy!  (thats me saying bye, and write a comment)!