How have I changed this year?

Surely there are things about yourself that you don’t like. So you change them, right? Well, not exactly. It’s more likely that you keep on doing them, even though you say you’d like to change them. So is the old adage, “A leopard can’t change his spots,” true? That people can’t change?

No, people can change.

How have I changed, well that's a vague question, changing from what? From my blog or how have I changed as a person? Other than the obvious marks, meaning voice dropping an octave, getting taller, getting more mature well, I guess not much.  I mean I have undergone some significant changes this year but that doesn't change the fact that what makes me and you truly me and you? Or as a philosopher said: what makes us, us?  Is it the way we act? Our actions? How we look? No its simply more simple, is how we can change, to what you ask? How we change as a person or even in an intense circumstance. Our morals, our witt,   how  we  think.  

 But you can’t just snap your fingers and say goodbye to well-established patterns that you have made, even when those patterns result in bad consequences. Sure, you wish it could be easier. You may be impatient with yourself, giving yourself a good scold: “Just stop it already!” Oh, how I hate the word “just” when it pertains to change. We don’t change “just” because someone (even ourselves) wants us to.

So, how do you change? 

It’s a process that begins with being aware. This may seem obvious, but it’s not. If you're used to blaming everyone else for your problems, then you're not aware. If you're living your life in a daze, blaming bad luck, then you're in denial. How are you ever going to change anything if you don't own up to how your thinking and behavior help create the predicament you're in?

Its not as easy as exercising for 4 weeks and keeping to it, it's not just putting your money into a savings account and walking away. No, we change the most when we are low, when we have done something wrongful, we recognise it, and we are alone. We, even without knowing it, sometimes will make an oath to change the way we are so that there are no consequences next time.

I have changed, I have changed by being more aware, I am on that path, not necessarily changed, I am constantly changing, I went from being stuck up to being relaxed and nicer to everyone.  Yes, it was because something distasteful happened to me, what I did, I don't want to own up too, I have though and I am not blaming anyone for it anymore, only myself. 

Change, not as easy as one might think, it is constantly happening and constantly will be happening. Change is as unavoidable as making mistakes, for we must improve, and to improve we must change.

Thanks to Forbes for this image

i guess idk

I can already tell you that this isnt a strong post...Ok so look I really don't know what i'm supposed to be talking about so ill really just procrastinginating yesh, thats a word now.  I know... Mother day, which is today, which is also not so good.

Image courtesy of Epic Club 

Mother's Day is a modern celebration honoring one's own mother, as well as motherhood, maternal bonds, and the influence of mothers in society. It is celebrated on various days in many parts of the world, most commonly in the months of March or May. It complements similar celebrations honoring family members, such as Father's Day and Siblings Day.The celebration of Mother's Day began in the United States in the early 20th century; it is not related to the many celebrations of mothers and motherhood that have occurred throughout the world over thousands of years, such as Pitru Paksha in Ancient India, the Greek cult to Cybele, the Roman festival of Hilaria, or the Christian Mothering Sunday celebration (originally a celebration of the mother church, not motherhood). I thought I would just tell you cuz why not, however I am tired of talking already from that VERY LONG extended definition.  No, im not just tired i'm exhausted, I have just given up to the point where I dont even know anymore.  My mothersday has been very long because well, I first didn't sleep last night, I have insomnia, not fun.  Then came home at nine cuz why not, got dressed, watched a movie, ate some breakfast and wrote a blog post.  Then I went to brunch at this place called the jarmy club, so that was fun, First I had a very filled plate with fruit, cantaloupe, strawberries, meat, eggs, and potatoes, that was a lot of food, I ate that five times then had dessert for like thirty minutes.  I could not stop eating, it was ridiculous.  We were eating foods with my family friends, they are like family to us, and they gave me a ride home because why not vs my parents who im pretty sure hate me.  Then I have homework (what IM doing now) and my parents locked me in my room and so I could not go anywhere which is annoying, so here I am, sitting, watching captain america two: the winter soldier.  Winter is coming, GOT reference.  Im wondering if there is even anyone out there? reading what i'm writing, so lonly, other then you MR P. and just to let you know Mr.Parker if your reading this please don't grade me on this blog post, will ya do it on another one.  Well here we are again, back at the end of the pose, what oh what am I going to do, probably write another one.  If someone is reading this will you please just like say a word, just say HI, in the comments because I honestly what to know if I should keep writing or not. OK Bye I guess.

Well I guess my movie

My movie, my movie, my movie that's ummmmm not very specific I guess i'm trying to say is what is my favorite movie, well thats really hard to say so im going to come up with it on the spot, right now.  Ok, so probably avatar, with the giant blue people, why I always say with the giant blue people is because there is this other stupid ass movie called avatar the last airbender, and trust me I like the television show but this movie, it made a movie that got rated a point five by the IMBD look like an eleven, you get what im saying? But the other movie it starts On the lush alien world of Pandora live the Na'vi, beings who appear primitive but are highly evolved. Because the planet's environment is poisonous, human/Na'vi hybrids, called Avatars, must link to human minds to allow for free movement on Pandora. Jake Sully (Sam Worthington), a paralyzed former Marine, becomes mobile again through one such Avatar and falls in love with a Na'vi woman . As a bond with her grows, he is drawn into a battle for the survival of her world over the human race who want to take the world from them for a precious mineral. Or you can llok at it from the needy perspective When his brother is killed in a robbery, paraplegic Marine Jake Sully decides to take his place in a mission on the distant world of Pandora. There he learns of greedy corporate figurehead Parker Selfridge's intentions of driving off the native humanoid "Na'vi" in order to mine for the precious material scattered throughout their rich woodland. In exchange for the spinal surgery that will fix his legs, Jake gathers intel for the cooperating military unit spearheaded by gung-ho Colonel Quaritch, while simultaneously attempting to infiltrate the Na'vi people with the use of an "avatar" identity. While Jake begins to bond with the native tribe and quickly falls in love with the beautiful alien Neytiri, the restless Colonel moves forward with his ruthless extermination tactics, forcing the soldier to take a stand - and fight back in an epic battle for the fate of Pandora.  Here is a picture of the movie '

image courtesy of the combat jack show

This movie is absolutely spectacular.  However this is not my only favorite movie, I also like most of the marvel movies like the avenger ones. You know what I mean, like iron man, thor, captain america, hulk, and guardians of the galaxy.  My friends and I can totally like nerd out for hours about this stuff, its ridiculous, like is feels like we can speak a different language. You could be standing right away from us and we could be speaking english and you would too but we would be saying thing that you, as a person, wouldn't understand or get just because there is like so much vocabulary between all of those movies, infinity stones, thanatos, cap, go two sleep. ect. Its just, another language, trust me.   You wanna know what would be cool, if you commented and told me what your favorite movie is and we can just talk about it.  We can speak our own language that no one else can understand. We can nerd out and just talk about movies.

making incense

ok, I know what you're thinking, it's really stupid and i'm never gonna read this, however maybe not, incense are a wonderful thing, the smell that they can emit can differ exponentially, I am here to teach you to be able to make your own, all you have to do is follow the following steps.  You can just google common incense recipes.  A list of recipes will show up, for example mine is 1 part cedar, 1/4 part mint, and 1/4 part pinion pine tree sap.  Now once you have that get all of you ingredients, and you may have to do something to them, for example I had to cut a metal can, and put the unhardened tree sap into the metal tin can,which was hot cuz I was burning it, melt the sap and pour it onto a piece of parchment paper wait for it to cool then ground it up in a mortar, then filter out all the pieces that are larger than a grain of sand then mix that with the tree resin that was already ground up without cooking it.  Ok, a little background info you must have three bases before you  start. You need a top topic, a middle topic and a base topic, each topic does its unique job.  The top gives flavor mixed with the middle and the base is used to bind and hold everything together.  Once all of all your ingredients are ground up, mix them together with a binding agent called makko powder, which is a natural combustant that is also water adhesive, which makes the whole process amazingly simple.  All you need to do is just mix equal parts of the makko powder with the mixed topics and add distilled water until it becomes something similar to dough.  Then mend this dough onto any stick or cone:

Image courtesy of Lucy6's blog

 Then you may need to open these incense to the sun for a few days and let them dry out so that the soaking process with the makko is done. Then  you need to heat them to the lowest temperature in your oven that you possibly can.  This will allow the makko powder to fully set in.  

I know it seems like a lot to put a handle on but once you're done you may  be able to create your own natural essence.  You may want to keep in mind this is all one hundred percent natural, there are no harmful chemicals at all.  Even the makko powder comes from the bark in a tree in asia.  I state my point again, you can customize your smell and this can also have medical benefits, and its all natural. I really hope that you guys liked this post, it was one of my favorites because I not only get to tell you how to make your own but I hope you comment later on, and if you decide to di it list some of your favorite recipes.  Thanks bye.